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I can't wait till I see him this morning. I have the perfect gift for him. :3 I drew him and framed it. It only took me a few hours. Hehehe. He has no idea that I did it. As far as he knows, I was in the middle of drawing something and the due date was today, lololol. I'm excited! Its priceless! Cause I'm a fucking awesome artist! ;)

we're meeting in times square for Ripley's believe it or not. I hope we take tons of pictures. :D I won't have my camera on me so he's going to tag me. :) Anyone on my Facebook - feel free to view it.

I find it ironic when people ask me what I'm going to do for new years. Nothing. Wine and cheese party maybe. If I can be bothered to buy wine. I have several cheeses from Trader Joe's. Goats, brie, gouda, chocolate cheddar and for my sister, bacon cheddar. With a verity of crackers.



What I always dreamed of doing was to be in times square with my boyfriend (whoever that is) and have the first kiss of the year there. No matter how many annoying tourists crowd the streets, or how bone chillingly frosty it is. Unfortunately I have work to attend to in the morning. Here's to hoping 2015 is that year. Its one of those goals in my life.

That reminds me. I want to make him something. And I only have a few days. D: lol He's a big tea drinker and said he's going to bring over tea leaves for me, hoping that people don't search his bag anywhere we go and assume its drugs xD That would retarded lol.

We went to the Met last Sunday. I was so afraid I'd be late that I came early xP Oh was it a great time. Later we had dinner and I ordered something awesome. Not saying >.> (yay I love being an adult lol An aaaaa dolt)

We're going to go to Ripley's next. I haven't been there in years. Its going to be so much fun cause he'll be there. I can't wait to make jokes and have the time of my life with his company.

Sunday I'll be with the family. Cause we're going somewhere to eat. I hardly pay for food these days, I just crash parties and that's how I live lol.

End of the year reflection- Lets star with the bad and work up to the good. 3 people I was close to died. My step dad has been dead of almost a year. January second. The two others were neighborhood friends.

I had my heart broken twice. Once in a relationship and the other, well, sigh, lets not bring it up. My motto has been, "Talk is cheap". Its a good thing that I'm used to disappointments and backstabbing, eh? Its funny in a way, cause I realized that I'm just like my mother, too nice to people!!! Fucking hilarious! :))) lol

Lastly, the whole eviction thing. That's not cool. I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do to help my family. All I know is that I have to stay strong and work as hard as I can. Every penny goes to them. Whenever I buy myself something its the scraps of transportation money I've saved up.



Now here's for the good- I'm grateful for good people in this world. Most complete strangers who've helped us. Some of the most random too. Seriously, I only wish and hope to give back as much helpfulness as these people.

The fact that I have a job to support my family is a blessing. Its really hard to find anything these days. The fact that its a job where I help people is such a good feeling. Plus! It's fuckin' cool when I actually save someone's life. :)

Lastly, I want to say thanks for the lovely new guy who found me. That was a good way to end the year. Now, it is too early to see how things will turn out, but these past few weeks have taken my mind off of so much and I don't know if he'll know how happy he makes me.

PS, can't wait to see him this Saturday! ♥ I have a ton of hope for the future. :D

Nope, no apology. I'll probably never get it.

All I want is an apology! I'm waiting for it.

2 out of 3 ain't bad. We canceled the date tomorrow cause of the horrible snow storm. But hey, I still got to party on Thursday and I got my new ink/piercing tonight. :) Tomorrow I'm sending out a few things.

I don't buy much clothes for myself anymore. I got a few 'hand-me-down" things, which I don't mind cause I can't afford to buy myself many nice things and I'll only slip out of it sooner or later.



I got this really nice winter coat. It makes me look sexy lol. With the plus of keeping me warm. Also have this American Eagle outfitters hoodie. Its supposed to be a size small/ petite , but I don't know how that's possible if it fits a fatass like me lol.

A lot happened over the weekend that was fun but I guess I kinda forgot to write about it. The only bad part about today was that I fell really hard cause of the snow which turned to ice. :/ I was bringing my family home some food, like pizza and stuff when I fell. The food was perfectly fine. My mom said she didn't care about it, she cares more about me lol. I know when someone has a head injury, they're supposed to stay up but I can't be bothered. I have work in the morning.

Eeee. That made me smile so much. He changed it for me. Hehe. :)

There's this disgusting guy I wrote about in the first entry of this month. He was such a jerk at the party. I can't believe that the other night I saw him drinking shots in front of a public library. Kids go there, man. I told myself I wouldn't get involved between the fight he had with someone but he's gotten on my last straw by talking behind my back. Next time I see him pulling that crap, I'm gonna walk in and report it.

Waking up to check my the happy conversations I left last night to find this comment lol, "Omg! You post the funniest shit! I almost peed my pants!!!" hehe, makes me feel good. Laughter is always the best medicine.

Yesterday I had the most amazing pizza. Someone bought it for me. I split the huge falafel ball slice with them, ate the best eggplant parmesan slice and then a few garlic knots.Boy was I full. Then noshed on some Bomba.



Last night the vegetarian guy and I talked about different foods. He said they make chocolate covered pickles. Oh my god! Lol someone with my taste.:D Him and I decided that our next date will be at the metropolitan museum of art. We're gonna have so much fun! I'm excited!!

I've been so stressed these past few weeks. At the same time, I've been trying to enjoy the holidays. Less hours these past two weeks for in training. Meh. Puts me further behind in saving up.

Ewwww, I fucking hate that. That guy is disgusting. Totally glad I dodged that fight because by default, I loathe the lot of 'em.